Whatever.

I think no one ever wish for earlier graduation more than me. Being the only child in your family that is still studying.
The feeling, emotion, enthusiasm in study, reading no longer the same as the time i started.
That why people always say, when time come, most of the thing will change.
But i'm not looking forward into working industry.
I just don't want to face the reality of studying.
Perhaps my mindset is different.
Studying is for examination, for grade, for pride, it was how it used to be. Ever since I found out grade proof nothing but showing how hardworking, how you going to tackle the exam, how you find a way to get the result....you notice that you basically need the helps from others who want not in the top list for helping you solving some problems. You felt so useless, incapable, worthless. It really demotivating. You felt like you will be quitting if possible, running away from reality. Hide in your emotional world.
What the true meaning of studying? Why reality is so harsh.
After all this nagging and frustrating, you realize that you should just give up everything and turn away from the world.

But you need to know, you still have your family supporting you. Thus, you have to be strong, even if you fail, you will still have someone at your back supporting you. So, go for it one more time, stand back when you fall. And the purpose of this post is just wanted to spilled out everything in my mind now so that I can get back on track to continue study for my exam.

First post of the year 2016. Gonna be ermmmmm good? Welll...whatever.